addicted

today we formed a ring together and moved to the left and then to the right. i also realised with a start that today marked 11 years since i wore a white top, shorts, had on my black shoes and walking around white-washing, spotting a white-washer, escaped into the washing and realised there was no way out. today also brings to mind a bible-togging aged man who has aged as much as i have. i wonder if the drain that i stomped on angrily has been fixed. or is it still loose, hanging over the culvert and lying in wait for its' next victim to jump up in fright as a clanging sound erupts from putting on too much weight on one portion of it.

so i marked in school today once again and had this weird conversation with my colleagues about food and sex, through no fault of mine since there is a magazine with the words "have sizzling sex tonight" displayed prominently near my shelf, which obviously does not belong to me. so there was much talk about helicopters, if you do know what they're getting at. i'm still unclear but i think i've figured it out :)

i shopped at somerset today. bought a pink tee with a wide collar and another pair of beach-shorts. i need them for blah days when i don't know where i'm going. i sat in the smoking open-air section of starbucks and had my latte with a mango cheesecake which melted in my mouth and smelt ash, cigar smoke and conversation mixed with the acrid taste of expresso. it's at times like these that i find coffee tastes like water mixed with cigarette ash. and i'm also convinced that i'm a potential chain smoker, if i do decide to pick it up at least. give me my coffee and pills to tide the day, and also a pencil to tap in hand to signify an action.

i went to this tiny church on the outskirts of busy orchard, where i passed by while walking to mohammad sultan once and which i took a picture of in the dark.

dinner was a lovely sweet, spicy, bitter, sour affair at siam kitchen, which i'm into nowadays. i love glass noodles, tiny peeled prawns, chopped corn, chicken wrapped in pandan leaves, thai fishcakes and tom yum soup.

then it was off to "addicted" where the songs, music and visions brought me back to headier times, times when we were carefree and free and love was an easy word. so long since. so long since. i hitch a ride home and never turn as i walk towards the lift and all of a sudden i recall lights shining behind me, imprinting me against the pink tiles for a moment, and how you looked with the backdrop of the brick tiles, the white walls, the tiny palm trees, and time stopped still for a while.